Browser Crashed: too many tabs open.

There's a funny meme that goes around about too many tabs.

So if you were wondering what happened to me, it was like that except my entire browser crashed and my computer was all BSOD (blue screen of death) and rather than deal with it, I just walked away.  

In the computer science world, you learn about threads.  Threads are processes that can run at the same time as each other, doing different tasks. Sometimes these tasks are related, sometimes they are not.  Sometimes your threads have to wait for processing power to run, sometimes they are waiting for another task to finish executing.  Threads share resources (memory) but do things independent of each other, which makes multi-tasking possible and why multi-processor computers are "fast".

But sometimes, threads have errors, usually caused by deadlock (infinite waiting) and have to be debugged (untangled).  And that was when I walked away.  I was tired of ALL the threads.  I was tired of the waiting/spinning.  I was tired of too many processes.  My processor done burnt out.  So I walked away from this blog.  I walked away from almost everything extraneous in my life.  I needed a hard reset.

I operated in high-power multi-threaded mode for 3 years.  I had three main threads, home, school, and work, and all the different processes within those main threads were all operating on high for 3 years.  Sometimes, there were errors, but I managed to debug them rather quickly and kept the rest of the processing running while in debug mode.  And then.. my number of main threads reduced by one and it was just home and work and my processor didn't know how to process just 2 threads anymore.

But then one of my two threads, work, started getting errors and the debugging process wasn't working.  So I decided that it was time to terminate that thread and start with a fresh work thread.  When you're new at coding (like me), it takes a LOT of work to create new code for threads... to mean, applying for jobs and interviewing and waiting for background checks (an absolutely tedious, long drawn out process that makes me frustrated and stabby) and it's just a matter of wading through it until something finally works out (i.e. you finally start a new job).

And like it happens in the tech world, when one thing fucks up, everything fucks up, so the home thread was also like, ehhh here's a few errors from us too, just to make sure you're still paying attention.  Nothing big, just like missing EOL (end of line) markers, simple fixes to the code that require a bit more attention than you're giving to the problem.

So yeah.  That's where I've been.. debugging/resetting my 2 threads.

I bunkered down because I wasn't sure I wanted anyone to know what was going on and there were specific people that I knew I didn't want to know and I have no way of knowing if they read this (it is an accepted risk that I take, even though I have like 5 confirmed Gentle Readers).  Truthfully, I wasn't looking for opinions or commiseration or advice, which is a large reason why I vanished.  Additionally, I felt like I was whining 98% of the time, which is fine since it is MY platform, but at the same time, there comes a point when you annoy yourself and I was there.

I've gotten to where I rarely leave "the compound" (home) these days just because the effort to go out is too much (some might call that... depression, as going out is not the only task that is "too much effort").  Grocery orders must all be picked up on the same day and going into the store is rarely worth it.  I do go to the Chiro out of absolute necessity, but I go on a day that I already need to go out for something else, if possible.

In my time away, I did a lot of running and had some interviews and applied for more jobs and we had some visitors and we took the bikes up to the Tail of the Dragon in TN/NC to ride and we came up with a life plan and I've played a lot of WoW and I've barely been reading anything (books, other blogs, anything that requires focus/brain power) and I've just been doing whatever the fuck I want... and it's fabulous in a limited life kind of way.  /shrug  At the same time, I've been dealing with overwhelming rage and stress and anxiety about the work thread, the current process and potential future processes related to that thread.

I haven't decided if I missed this space or not.  Part of me says yes, but part of me says no because it's one less pressure I put on myself.  IDK.  We'll see how it pans out.

Five on Friday #227

EINS - Random Shit

This article about Hating Popular Books spoke to me... Because I'm a hater of popular things. #Sorrynotsorry

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Since I didn't go to the eye doctor last year because insurance wouldn't cover new frames (only new lenses and I knew my prescription wouldn't change that much, so not worth the hassle), I decided to go this year.  Because I'm cheap, I went to Walmart Optical (and also, I've been there before).  I decided on a whim to swing by on Tuesday when I left campus.  Miraculously, the doctor was able to see me and do an eye exam.  While we waited on my eyes to dilate, I tried on frames... ya know, one of my favorite past times.. (sun)glasses modeling.

Teh German's next frames, or something similar.
Bet me.

The doc straight up was like, "NO PUT THOSE DOWN. They have been there for 10 years, they are out of style now. NO!"

The doc had me try these frames on and then explained that I'm the only person she's ever seen in those frames that could pull them off.
Thank you, thank you very much.  /bow

Top contenders.
It's a red frames year.

DEM PUPILSSSSSS.

Fun fact, I can't get new glasses until after March 6th, since that's when I got new glasses in 2018.  Siiiiiigh.  But the lady in the optical center that helped me put a note in my record for the glasses I picked, so hopefully it's just a matter of going in to order them and waiting for them to come in.

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When hoarding stickers is actually a problem and you really do have too many stickers...

There were stickers that I didn't use, because of fit problems.  I also had to save space for a Holy City Brewing sticker, which is the large unoccupied space.

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Why Elizabeth Warren is my girl crush.

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It's been a snuggle Meri week.

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TODAY is meet Teh Bestie and Matilda in Charlotte day!! YAY!!! 
As expected, I forgot something that I couldn't pin down before I left the house.  I arrived at work and realized I'd left my phone charger.  Thankfully, I have chargers at work and in Willow, so it's fine.. it just won't be the super convenient 10ft charging cable that I prefer for hotel room stays.  #FirstWorldProblems

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I managed to fix the jets in the bathtub all by myself.  I just had to reset the GFCI outlet.  Glad those fucking things have taught me the solution is sometimes that simple.. Even if the lesson was incredibly frustrating at the time.

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Betty Crocker came to visit this week and she (me, I'm Betty Crocker) made tortellini soup and it was fucking delicious and there were zero regrets.

A bowl for the freezer!  Woot!

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Honestly, it's been a quiet week and I'm not sad about it.  Things are finally into a routine and I'm thriving in this space.  School is getting accomplished.  I was coding successfully the other day which brought me an obscene amount of joy.  I can understand 70% of the things my German professor says in German.  I am confident the database project for my lone computer science class (I don't count my research class since it's not a formal class) this semester is going to be relatively painless.  My Stats class is a breeze and I don't think about it much outside of class. 

Things with Teh German have finally settled and we're back into our groove as well.  This weekend we're apart while I go to Charlotte for a run and he goes to Columbia for the annual beer event with Teh Neighbor Besties.

After more than a month of strife, I'm glad this settled feeling has finally arrived.

ZWEI - Money Shit

-Groceries
-Spotify
-Valentines splurge 75% off candy
-Starbuckos
-Bojangles x2.
-Tickets for a Holy City event for Teh German and I in May.
-Commonhouse beers... for ME.
-A birthday suplize.

DREI - From My Phone Shit

When you gotta buckle in the fancy roses from Husband.

Teh German commented that this was a very German dish for me.
Grilled cheese (bread and cheese), tater tots (potatoes), and a salad; all the German meal staples.

80 days.  EIGHTY MOTHERFUCKIN DAYZZZZ.
Yes, that's a Starbuckos straw for my not-peppermint java chip frap.
I swear they have coconut syrup in a peppermint syrup container.  But it tastes like an Almond Joy, which isn't bad, and I'm afraid at how bad they'd fuck it up if they tried to fix the drink.. so I just let accept it.
As long as it doesn't taste like toothpaste, it's tolerable.

Meatball subs and salad, for when you gotta use the red sauce that won't fit in the freezer.

Teh PT Wife's new medal rack.

Chocolate covered kreme filled?
YAS PLEASE.

Thankful for a local beer that has that "yeast roll" aftertaste.
I bought myself a 6-pack.

When you want a fun cup instead of a boring cup.

VIER - From the Internet Shit

CAT FIGHT.
I'm for neither, kthxbye.

When the Navy CIO makes jokes.

$43 FOR A RIPPED UP SWEATSHIRT.
DAFUQ PEOPLE?!

FÜNF - Things that made me happy this week

1. Stickers on my work laptop.  So what if I look like a beer/dog-lover.
2. Being the adult and supporting someone's choices, even if I don't support the choice.
3. Putting my coffee in a fun cup this morning instead of a boring cup.  It's the little things.
4. Splurging on myself.  Food treats that weren't necessary, but brought me joy nonetheless.
5. Routine.
6. Successfully coding something.  Coding is so painful so much of the time.
7. A friend noticing my FB lurking.
8. Pulling out the suitcase.
9. Finishing Cricut projects that have been needing attention for a while.
10. Getting to see Teh Bestie and Matilda today!!!!

Happy Friday, Gentle Readers.

Five on Friday #212

EINS - Random Shit

After last week being the week that would never end, this week kinda flew by and I'm not sad.  I'm ready for September to be over already.  For no real reason other than, that's a month through school and I'm ready for consistent cool weather.

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Things I did this week:
-Went to my first VA appointment.
-Cancelled my ENT appointment.
-Rescheduled the exterminator visit so someone can be home since I want them to do the inside of the house and I want them to do a better job in general (i.e., remove the spider webs like they are supposed to).
-Scheduled a laser hair removal appointment.  My BJB is back and I have the sads.
-Applied for graduation 🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌
-Had an ice cream date with Teh PT Wife at Sweet Frog because No Weigh Wednesday is a priority.
-Worked out consistently.
-Enjoyed outside.

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In a freak incident, my steering wheel ate my brand new lint ball on Thursday and it was kinda par for the course of the day.  I'm still not even sure how it happened, but it did and I was super upset about it.  Granted, I ended up finding TWO lint balls later when I was doing laundry, but it doesn't replace a brand new lint ball that I just started.

I know, I know, #MeganProblems.

Also, I have had discussions with others that maybe my lint ball rolling feeds into a sensory issue/disorder.  IDK.  I'm sure if I look it up on WebMD, I'll die in 3-6 months because I've been rolling lint balls since birth.

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I lost my shit on the cadets this morning.  It was accidentally on purpose..
What had happened was....

I've been fielding a LOT of (imo) stupid questions this week (although one professor says, "There are no stupid questions, only stupid people." ...and he might be on to something there), and by Thursday afternoon, it warranted a FB status update with sections of all caps.  By Friday morning... I lost it.

See, I have an issue with people who don't pay attention.  If the instructor said something in class like, "We have a quiz on this material during our next class meeting," or "Here is the code for this entire homework section."  THAT is information that everyone in the class should know.  Yes, I can understand asking another student for information if you were taking notes and missed something, but if you were sleeping and you missed the announcement or you chose not to copy down what was on the board because you had to leave?  GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY FACE.

No less than 3 students came in my first class on Friday and asked if we had a quiz (we did) that morning.  We always have a quiz, almost every.single.day in classes taught by that professor.  Then, those same "I can't pay attention in class" morons would follow that up with, "Oh and do we have make up class on Saturday?"  Not only did I lose my shit, but I also wrote it on the board because I was tired of answering the same shit that the instructor had answered multiple times earlier in the week.

Honestly, I think my professor wasn't sad at my outburst about their lack of attention to detail/unpreparedness.  I'm sure he probably feels that way each semester.  As a solution, I wrote that there was no class on Saturday and that there was a quiz that day and what it was on.  I did this for the 2 subsequent classes as well.  Anal professor thanked me for my note during our 2nd class together.  At least I know someone appreciated my efforts.

This was actually the 2nd time I lost my shit at school this week.  The first time was on an individual cadet who never pays attention to anything except his laptop during class and then insists on asking questions after class that were answered during class and obviously that pisses me off.  Anyways, I have a very anal professor for 3 of my 5 classes and he doesn't like/allow when students leave in the middle of his lectures.  Truthfully, it distracts him and he doesn't handle that well.  Then, the rest of us get distracted when professor starts lecturing us about how disrespectful it is to get up and walk out of class while there is a lecture going on and how distracting it is for students because everyone watches that person walk out and THAT FUCKING PERSON never has to hear any of that since they are out of the classroom.

So in a later class, when that SAME FUCKING CADET got up to leave the anal professor's class in the middle of the lecture, AGAIN... I didn't say anything at first because I thought the professor would just continue on... THEN, the professor paused and before he could get any words out, I said loud enough for everyone and the professor (who is hard of hearing) to clearly hear, "If YOU get me lectured AGAIN about leaving during the middle of class, I'll make sure you get the same lecture after class."

Cadet looked at me like, oh shit, then looked at the professor and said, "It's an emergency," and the professor just nodded at him.  Thankfully, there was no repeat "disrespectful/disruptive" side-lecture, but if there had been, I was going to tear that kid up after class.

I'm over these fucktards not being prepared for class and not having a writing utensil or knowing when shit is due.  If I can manage my real life and college at the same time, they can manage college.  It's not that hard if you put in a minimal amount of effort.

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I really liked the VA doc that I saw.  I explained that an expensive, useless ENT visit was what prompted me to finally come to the VA for treatment options since my issues are covered by the VA anyways, so why not take advantage of the resource?

Doc gave me scripts for my GERD, several, in fact, so we can test out what works/doesn't and go from there.  A refill for my anxiety medication, and I'm also supposed to have labs done for general health purposes.

In fact, I went to the clinic during Thursday morning walk-in hours and they were closed.  I was really fucking annoyed and it shadowed the rest of my day.

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Professor creates new Slack channel for Citadel Women in Computer Science.
The/my first post:

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Sometimes, I accidentally stalk my husband.  #SorryNotSorry

Thurs morning, I accidentally took the "go to school" route instead of the "to go work" route and I passed Teh German, even though I left more than 5 minutes after he did.  See also: Why I do not stay in the right most lane on 26...

I had to go to Walmart to pick up a forgotten dinner item and saw Teh German's truck at the gym on my way home.

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2 weeks ago, we went to Merrell so I could try out a pair of rainbow shoes I'd seen online and they didn't have them in store and they were sold out online... Ugh.  So I added myself to the "notify me when these come back in stock" email list and I bought the shoes within 10 minutes of receiving the email.  I wasn't preparing to like them, but I really do.  Thus ends the school shoe shopping saga.

The Brooks with the 90s tongue will be returned to Dick's this weekend.

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The high in Charleston has been less than 85°F for the end of the week.  I know that is still hot for most everyone else, but here in the South, in September, we call this Fake Fall, but it gives us hope for when fall does eventually come in late October.

That said, I couldn't NOT take advantage of this GLORIOUS temps.

The Runkeeper selfie doesn't show the temperature, but it was 60°F during my run!!!!  CRAZY LOW.  I'm actually wearing a long sleeve shirt because I knew I'd get chilly and I wasn't wrong.  Also, DAT PACE!!!  All that elliptical time is paying off!  It's been a LONG time since I've ran a sub-10 minute pace.

I'll attribute some of that to the coolness, but not all of it.  The first mile was actually 9:38, but I also didn't walk at all, so that helped keep it down.

That said, I'm trying to debate if I'm going to the gym after I leave work.  #DecisionsAreHard

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I talked Teh German into doing a Pack Up and Go trip for our anniversary.  Friends told us about this after their awesome experience.  When I first brought it up to Teh German as an idea, we looked up some reviews and he said he wasn't sure because he read some stuff that said you spend a portion of the budget on paying the company to plan your trip, when you could just plan it yourself and save that money.

And, Gentle Readers, I didn't even laugh in his face when he said, "We could just save that money and we could plan the trip ourselves."  Because any WE involved in trip planning ALWAYS means flipping that W upside down and it becoming a ME planning said trip.

There are multiple reasons for this, one of the biggest factors being my control freakness and Teh German's ostrich tendencies.  I did, kindly, say, "We both know that 'WE' would not be planning whatever trip we take, it would be ME, and I have enough going on.  Also, that's part of the appeal, the surprise about where they send you."

I did look at the direct flight options from Charleston and the cities I would be interested are: Boston, Nashville, Philly.  Nashville is the only place that neither of us have been.  I made sure to put that we LOVE the cold to the comments sections, so hopefully they won't send us to Florida or something.  I did forget to mention that we'd already been to Atlanta, so hopefully they don't send us there or if they do, they come up with interesting things.

Our anniversary (11/1) is actually on a Friday this year, so the first day of our trip will be our actual anniversary, so that is exciting.  I will not be going to class.  /shrug.

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Updated list of languages I'm dealing with:
-Java
-Kotlin
-Ruby (on Rails)
-HTML/CSS
-C++
-AsciiDocs
-CLI

When I told this to the nerds at work, even they were like, fuck that sucks.  YES, THANK YOU.
#JesusTakeTheKeyboard

ZWEI - Money Shit

-Popcorn for cub scouts sale.
-Bread for Teh PT Kid's band sale.
-Thanksgiving 5k.
-Groceries
-Gas
-Chickfila for lunch.
-New yard shoes that look like crocks with claws.  I'm actually super excited about these, but in a low-key way, because how uncool am I?  They were only $13 for 2 pairs and now I can get rid of my sun-warped Crocs that I've been using.
-Spotify
-New Merrell shoes, that I will be keeping.
-Pack Up and Go trip.
-Audible x2, which I think is because I switched to an every other month credit plan.  I have 6 credits to use currently and I have no idea what to use them on.  I have more than 3 audiobooks on deck to listen to, but a library hold came in, so now my deck is on pause.  #FirstWorldProblems
-Bojangles for breakfast x2.  Splurge morning and then the morning that I didn't get labs done.  Ugh.
-New coffee pods and creamer to try.
-Sweet Frog date
-New belt for Teh German, since he insists that his work belt is "fine" even though the leather is splitting and the belt looks ghetto AF.

DREI - From My Phone Shit

Meri and her head pillow.
This is some Olive teachin' in action.

Windows down, sunroof open, jamz loud.
Happy Fake Fall!

HOCKEY IS BACK.
It's preseason, but ya'll been talkin about football for the entire fucking year, so please expect me to interject something about hockey anytime sports is the topic of conversation.

What do sea monsters eat?
Fish and ships.

Are you even coding if you don't have a millionty tabs open?
The answer is no.

LOOOOOOOOOOOOL
I admitted to Teh German that I stopped worrying about my quizzes for my anal professor's classes.
This choice has eliminated A LOT of stress in my life...
And this note from my professor gave me the LOLZ.

Sitting outside at work is mandatory when it's only 80°F outside.
Less mandatory: the fucking mosquito bites on my tattoos... Grr.

VIER - From the Internet Shit

You are going to be ok.
Not perfect, but ok.
For even in uncertainty, you can take this day by day.
-MHN

Do your best while also remember your worth is not attached to what you accomplish. - MHN

You are not who you used to be,
and that is a beautiful thing.
-MHN

You do not have to bear the burden of everything today.
You are allowed to slow down and take time to sort things out.
-MHN

FÜNF - Things that made me happy this week

1. "COLD"
2. Completing homework assignments the day they are assigned.
3. Lists of tasks.
4. Prescriptions being mailed to me so I don't have to worry about going to the pharmacy.
5. A Boberry biscuit for Friday lunch dessert, after I didn't eat it on Thursday.
6. Walks with the beasts.
7. Short trains... I mean if I'm going to get caught by them incessantly, I can at least be grateful when they are short.
8. Anniversary plans.
9. RUNNING.  I can tell you the number of times I've run since the Bridge Run and it's not an impressive number (today, Hot Pursuit 5k in June, Duisburg City Race in May).  But it was just too hot and it wasn't worth it.  
10. Almost being finished with the Marvel movies.  Next up is The Ranch, Big Mouth, more Americans, and Vikings whenever that comes back.

Happy Friday, Gentle Readers.

Five on Friday #211

EINS - Random Shit

I can't post this on my neighborhood page without getting judged but I considered it...

It's about ducks. FUCKING DUCKS. AND fucking geese! How do I run off ducks and geese?

Truthfully, I don't overly mind the fowl in our neighborhood.. eeeeexxxxcceeeeppptttt thattttttt... when I walk the dogs, we ALWAYS, without fail, come across the flock of geese or ducks and Meri loses her shit and Pax is like, "WUTT, Meri is losing her shit? OH SHIT DUCKS. DINNERS, MAHM? TASTY DUCK TREATS FOR MERI AND I?! PLS, MAHM????" Our first walk since Pax's incident, Meri was SCREAMING like I was beating her within an inch of her life to get to the ducks. I was mortified, but I knew that when anyone looked out their window to see what the commotion was, they'd see me, facing the opposite direction of 2 fowl-crazed beasts, gently trying to tug them towards the direction of our house, AWAY from the fowl flock.

I AM that crazy lady who runs out the door yelling at the ducks when I seem them in my yard because I do NOT want their poop all over my yard/sidewalk/driveway. But how do I run them off from the house 4 doors down? I mean, besides the obvious: let my dogs chase them and they get a treat... Except, I can't do that since I can't run as fast as Meri on the hunt and I won't let them off leash since we don't live in a gated area.

PS.  There are no ducks or cats when you walk at 8:30 at night.. but there are still plenty of things for both of my dogs to be SUPER interested in that distract them and cause them to walk like drunkards..

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My least favorite part about summer is the pressure changes that come with hot air and conflicting pressure systems.  I mean, other than the perpetual swamp ass/yeast factory situation and the being hot and sweaty when you open the door, maybe #BarometerHead is actually why I hate summer.  No one knows.

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After much neglect, I finally updated my books post this week.  It will post in October since I do book posts quarterly.  I could probably do monthly posts again, but the quarterly level of effort really suits me right now.

For some of the books, I had to read the synopsis to even remember what the book was about.. so that tells you how my reading life has been going.  That said, I'm currently listening to A Woman Is No Man and reading The Ragged Edge of Night and I'm loving on both and cannot get enough, much to the detriment of my homework situation.  More on that in the next blurb....

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It is absolutely no surprise to anyone reading this that I'm an overachiever.  I've talked a lot about my self-inflicted school stress and this semester (all 5 days that we've had class so far, thanks, Hurrication), I've been doing very good about not running myself into the ground.  And you're like, it's like 3 days into the semester, how could you possibly be running yourself into the ground already... AND THAT'S EXACTLY THE PROBLEM.  I could be, but I'm trying to check that this year.

In fact, PITA professor that I have for 3 classes gives a quiz every.class.  And this year, I've embraced a more "come what may" attitude about it.  In his former classes, the homework and the quizzes were the same, so to do the homework meant being prepared for the quizzes.  This semester that isn't true, so rather than stress myself out over trying to know absolutely everything and torturing myself with never being able to know everything, I study for a bit and then when I am no longer focused or get tired, I walk away, prepared or not.  Sometimes before class, I'll skim the notes and hope for the best, but... come what may.

I do not plan to fail any of my classes and while I would like to keep my Dean's List streak going, there's no way that C's could mean I don't graduate, sooooo C's get degrees, Gentle Readers.

Someone please remind me of this entire section in December when I'm having a mental breakdown about exams and final projects/papers.  Kthx.

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I arrived to school around 0700 on Wednesday and proceeded to my dungeon.  Since some "can you complete this in the next 2 hours before our Sprint ends" tasking came in, I spent my lunch time in my dungeon... Then, my afternoon class.  All said, I was in that room for 6.5 hours.  I only left to pee and heat up my lunch.  Few things are more depressing than thinking of this.

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I tried the Dropps laundry pods.  I always want to be more environmentally friendly and shit.. but I also always want my laundry to smell delightful.  The Dropps pods did not provide that smell I need for proper laundry motivation.  Seriously.  If my laundry doesn't smell good when I take it out of the dryer, it's less likely to get done and Lord knows I need all the motivation I can get to get the Laundry Fairy to come out of hiding.

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As the only person who ensures that there are spare rolls of toilet paper in all the bathrooms (unless I specifically tell someone else (Teh German, duh) to take care of it, I feel validated to leave just a "is that going to be enough?" amount of paper on the roll for the next person (also, mostly likely Teh German), so they have to change it.  #NotSorry 🤷

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I have been planning to make enchiladas for dinner for over a week.  It was on the menu.  I did not have any refried beans, so I made my own from canned black beans I keep on hand.  Then, when I went to assemble said enchiladas, I realized.. I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE ANY TORTILLAS.

WHAT THE FUCK, MEGAN?  Is this how you adult, really?  No.
Thankfully, Teh PT Wife saved dinner and donated a pack of tortillas to our cause and we had enchiladas for dinner.  Whew.

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Pax had his foot check up on Wednesday.  Since I was bringing one in already, I rescheduled their toes did appointment for the same day, which meant wrangling 2 dogs alone.  Always fucking chaos an adventure.

Pax's stitches were removed with only minor difficulty.  I was right, the stitches didn't really hold well and the wound was still pretty open, but it had completely scabbed over, so that's good.  The doc said if it doesn't close up, maybe more stitches, butttt this Mom says probably not.  We did get 2 more weeks of antibiotics since it's still open, which is fine.

Both dogs got their nails cut and I made an appointment for October, because I'm serious about getting these nails under control.

Both dogs HAD to be by me, and since that's where they were, that's where the techs decided to remove Pax's stitches.
Yes, please crowd me in this tiny corner.
That's my favorite thing.
Siiiigh.
Please note that Meri is hiding behind me.

Pax pitched a fit when he was muzzled and crated and gave himself a nose boo-boo.
The scab fell off yesterday and now he's got this sexy scar.
Silly goose moose.

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We had an opportunity to go to Disney World before Thanksgiving with some friends, but after some consideration, we're not going.  I discussed this decision with Teh German this week and he understood.  We've not been to Disney together since he proposed and we'd both like to go, butttt I'd rather plan our own trip than be thrown into someone else's plans, especially if there isn't a stellar financial incentive (aka, cheaper) to go with friends.

Siiiiiigh.  Adulting is the worst.
This also means that I don't have to juggle a lack of PTO and trying to take time off/teleworking.  #SilverLinings

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List of languages that I'm dealing with this month/at this time:
Java
Kotlin (knowing of it, not writing it)
Ruby
AsciiDocs (for work)
command line instructions
made up language for a class

List of languages I'll have to deal with before the end of the semester:
C++
Bash
Haskell
+ the ones listed above

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One of my fave parts of this week: Me talking about how I wanted it to be cooler and Teh German posting Denver temps.  We might not always get along, but lawd he gets me when it comes to the cold.

Please also note that Teh German has Denver's weather saved as a favorite location in his weather app.  So if you think I'm serious about CO, Teh German is MORE serious.

PS.  Our Denver friend commented that it actually snowed in CO this week.  Another friend commented that maybe I should move out of the South and I explained to her that we're stuck here for at least another 238 days (see last section for what is in 238 days, if you don't already know).

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Things that make me (ir)rationally angry:

-The fucktards at school who drive these big ass dually trucks (these people are probably actual military individuals who teach at/go to The Citadel) and park right behind the building taking up 1.5 parking spaces and then people who drive normal cars can't fit in the 3/4ths of a space they leave between each other.  #RAAAAGGEEEEE (I snapped about this one morning and one of the drivers saw me.  #NotSorry MFer.)

-When the sweet tea runs out.  This doesn't really make me angry so much as disappointed.  Unless, of course, I asked for light ice and they fill the cup with ice then I'm out of tea that much quicker.

-Convenience/etc fees when you buy something online.  Essentially a fee for more than the product that isn't tax because the website is providing a service.  Think Ticketmaster or online race signup fees.

ZWEI - Money Shit

-I invested in Company's investment program.  It's weird since we're an LLC, but whatever.  Does it get more adult than investing?  I think not.  Well.. maybe if you actually clean your toilets on a regular schedule yourself...
-Sam's club stock up.
-New shoes x2.  The Merrell lady still gave me the 50% off discount even though I only bought one pair since they were sold out of the shoes I came in looking for.  #SorryNotSorry.  And I also finally broke down and bought the Brooks I've been drooling over.  Not sure if I'm going to keep them or not, but we'll see.
-Power bill
-Bojangles 1 time ONLY.
-Cocoa Cup 5k
-Dog nails
-Dog bully sticks
-Dog toys (because I have no self-control, but I did use my remaining rewards dollas, so I only paid $4.)
-New earbuds after I lost mine on Monday, because that's how my life is now.
-New muzzle for asshole dog, I mean Pax, since he decided that he didn't want to be in his crate after his incident.
-Wendy's for lunch, after I forgot my lunch today, even though I realized I forgot to pack my lunch when I was putting my stuff in the car and then promptly forgot to pack it after I told myself to grab lunch.  FML.

DREI - From My Phone Shit

I've been killing the "thrown together" dinners this month.

People in Dubai don't like the Flintstones, but people in Abu Dhabi do.

Translation faillllllllllll.
Please also note: only for white skin. LOOOL
Also, how can skin be ruddy and shiny?
So much fail.

VIER - From the Internet Shit

This applies to anything that has a dark mode, but people leave it in the default light mode and I'm blinded by the light.

Your lowest moment will not hinder you from reaching the heights you have been called to.
-MHN

You are about to enter depths you have never entered before,
and you might brave moments where you are not sure if you have the strength for this.
And I hope it is in those moments you are able to remember that even though this is different,
you have had to be strong before,
and those moments prepared your heart to carry on all the more.
-MHN

Your successes do not define you...
And neither do your failures.
-MHN

1. Be kind to yourself.
2. Take care of yourself.
3. Challenge yourself.
MHN

FÜNF - Things that made me happy this week

1. A thawing of the frigid season that has been going on between Teh German and I.  I can't really explain it, but we've been more gentle with each other in the last few days, after several weeks of tension and bickering between us for no real discernible reason (with the exception of some occasional discernible reasons).
2. School not being difficult yet.  AKA, I don't feel like I've been beaten into submission yet.  I'm sure it's imminent.
3. A tropical storm in the Atlantic.  Look, Gentle Readers, I don't want storm damage to occur or for people to die.  I just want it to rain and be cooler outside.  I want less humidity and to not have to experience air that is so thick that you can almost part it with your hands or you need gills to breathe or your car windows fog up in the morning because your hair is wet and it's so hot outside (#FirstWorldProblems, I know).
4. Graduation application submitted.  238 days, people.  That's 34 weeks.  That's 7.5 months.  That's less time than it takes to fully gestate a human baby.  If a woman can host a baby for 9 months, I can survive 7.5 more months of college and programming languages and Cadets and driving downtown and homework.  Maybe.
5. Pax having his stitches removed.  His laceration has scabbed up but the stitches didn't really do much for him since the wound was so gnarly.  Thankfully, he's not bleeding all over the place, despite the scab being opened up when they removed the stitches.  I think he'll be fine.  I'm ready to get back to our normal operations (to include walkies, which are good for the beasts AND for me).
6. A "normal" week for me.  Routine is so hard to get into when everything is always crazy.
7. Good books.  It feels like it's been such a long time since I've been completely enraptured by a good book.
8. Getting to spend some time with Teh NY Chef on her birthday.  
9. An absolutely stellar chiro visit where I'm 95% certain I grew 2 inches.  Sooo good.
10. New school shoes.  I know this seems silly, but we always got new school shoes to start the school year (and usually new school clothes).  Now, I buy clothes all the time, but I don't buy shoes all that often and I like having new school shoes for whatever reason.  I purchased Merrell shoes last weekend and my Brooks that I ordered online arrived today.  I can now purge the shoes I have, if necessary, or rotate through some running/workout shoes.  I'm undecided.  #FirstWorldProblems, I know.

Happy Friday, Gentle Readers.